Lyrics
sometimes I try to forgive you
one of us should be the bigger person
but then it feels like being with you
stepping up where you just don't deserve it
you weren't good at saying sorry
catholic guilt can only do so much
used to hate how weak you saw me
now I think it shows how young I was
you could've loved me better babe
you didn't want to
I guess i thought if nothing else I'd get to haunt you
but
I'm scared that I can't love right
you've got a goddamn good life
I sit and twist this old knife
for something to do
you made a mockery of me
you made a good heart ugly
then turned into somebody
I deserved too
cuz now you're all somebody else could ever need
but you'll always be the one who butchered me
you're a good man now see that
I still watch the things you post online
doesn't give my dignity back
can't erase all of the wasted time
you and all your angry choices
I tried my best to teach you right from wrong
now I flinch when men raise their voices
and i dont wonder where the blame belongs
I'm scared that I can't love right
you've got a goddamn good life
I sit and twist this old knife
for something to do
you made a mockery of me
you made a good heart ugly
then turned into somebody
I deserved too
and now you're all somebody else could ever need
but you'll always be the one who butchered me
I get to pay for all your sins!
you made the bed I'm laying in!
don't act like you're so innocent!
you butchered me you know you did!
you'll never get your punishment!
so i have to hate your happiness!
it's like I said! it's what it is!
but you butchered me you know you did!
you know you did
you know you did
you know you did
oh
I'm scared that I can't love right
you've got a goddamn good life
I sit and twist this old knife
for something to do
you made a mockery of me
you made a good heart ugly
then turned into somebody
I deserved too
cuz now you're all somebody else could ever need
but you'll always be the one who butchered me